For the first time in quite a while, and absolutely for the first time at this particular job, I had a rough week at work. I've been antsy and exhausted, and never felt like I had a chance to recharge from the day before I woke up, and had to do it again.
This is not the first time I've felt this way, to be fair. Feeling too exhausted to be effective at work is by no means a new feeling. To use another Arrested Development reference in this post,
"I think this feeling that you're feeling, is what we call...a feeling."
Do I think I'm more aware of it because our field talks about it a lot? You betcha. Is it considered as big of a deal in other fields? Maybe, maybe not. But that's a discussion for a whole other day. For now, let's say this: it was a rough week at work. They happen.
But I will also say this: unlike my previous "first year" in a position, I have had a pretty good bad week. Why? I have support here. I have supervisors who will talk things out with me, help me solve some of the things that I struggle with. I have students who uplift me and make me smile even when I'm overwhelmed or exhausted. I have colleagues who help pick up the slack and also will help me smile through the ridiculousness. And I have friends who will talk through all of this with me, with their thumbs or with their words :)
I can honestly say that I had none of those things the last time I wanted to curl up and hide in my office.
So even as the intensity of the coming weeks is staring me in the face, I know that I'll be able to handle it. Moreover, I know that this is building me up to be a better supervisor down the road. Having the ability to contrast a less than ideal work decision with such a supportive one will help me make it to the end of those rough days, even when I can't see the way there on my own.
We all try to strike balance in our lives. Sometimes, we don't always make it there. How do you cope? Who helps you?